Wasted Days?

I had a few days of wasting time lately... not even particularly enjoying what I was doing. There were things I wanted to write, projects requiring work.... but I just didn't have the motivation to engage my brain & do them. I drifted aimlessly through the internet, not really taking it in, thought about what I 'should' & what I wanted to do, couldn't be bothered to read.... I don't really know what I did, apart from the essentials. Normally I can enjoy a couple of days to myself 'doing nothing' and really appreciate the time to think or read or whatever.

It was dark moon; I often withdraw a little then, or feel less creative, but wednesday, thursday, friday were pretty much wasted. That is, if any time is really wasted. The New Moon was in taurus on wed, thur, fri, (!) then into gemini on sat.... so things should have been creative, but taurus can be lazy... hmmm....

And then, as things began to shift, my photos of a gorgeous sliver of waxing moon didn't come out, (operator error!)... apart from this one....

fri, 16th april

...which was an accident... but I like it. It captures how I've been.... sort of out of focus! If you click to enlarge, you will see starlight dancing around aswell! These are the first moon shots with my new camera... I've been absorbing a lot of information about photography & the workings of my camera lately, and gradually putting it into practice.... with varying degrees of success...

sat, 17th april

I've still got to work on it to get better exposure... if there hadn't been clouds last night, I'm sure I would have done better! What I am amazed & excited about is the potential I can see... 

I've also written loads since yesterday... words & ideas are flowing. It's fairly normal for me to build in creativity as the moon waxes, but it is a pace that cannot be sustained indefinitely. Which is why we have those wasted days... sometime we recognise the need to back off & rest, but sometimes other energies force that lack-lustre feeling... insisting on mental or physical inactivity... perhaps to re-charge, or perhaps to allow other things in.... perhaps new seeds of inspiration are sown, or information from the cosmos beams in on other frequencies which necessitates the shut-down of our regular pattern... stuff that needs to be absorbed before being put into practice, or until it gradually filters through into our consciousness....

So, although I felt that I was wasting time... once I thought about it & accepted that was just 'how it is' at the moment... let myself be aware of differing energies... i no longer judged it as wasted time. I don't know exactly what or why, but I do know that it was necessary.... and there wasn't a thing I could do to change it!